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I knew Rob since he joined my workplace in November 06, but I didn't really notice him as he is too quiet. Somewhere near late January this year (and after working together on a sunday) i realised that i actually fancied him. February, i was smitten, although love was sidelined for me because i had an essay to write and move all my things (that's a lot) to my new place. Although he actually voluteered to help me get rid of my things as he had a car.
I knew we were friends from then. By the end of March, after many more philosophical conversations. I knew i wouldn't see much of him over the Easter break, so i was going to ask him out, to meet over the easter break. Of course i got a cold and he didn't want to get my germs.

After easter, we continued to talk, and about our birthdays and how we were going to have a double birthday date, somewhere between the 1st and the 6th of June. I knew if anything was going to happen it would be a slow process as he's that type.

My birthday rolled round and we went out and we had a fantastic time. His birthday came round and i got him a pressie and a cake. After that first week of June, I started to realise that i was in love, for the first (proper) time since Ryan, well Ryan had been out of my life for nearly 4 years. Of course, trying to convince him on another date would be harder. As we had been talking about what characters we would be in Fantastic Four, I said i would be invisble woman, he said he wanted to be her and i said he was Mr Fantastic. Fine. As the release of Fantastic 4 was in mid June i said 'do you wanna see it'

He didn't want too, i didn't want to rush it and i wanted to tell him i would like to be more than friends. I didn't get a response and even at the BBQ, he was distant, although i gave him space, we talked in the late evening. He gave a hint there could be something there, but i haven't heard anything from him since...........

The middle of March 2003, the Cat and the Lantern, i had only been attending the karaoke for a month. My first visit was with my then boyfriend Areshi (but he didn't last long). I remember Matt and Yiggy (his friend) standing by the bar and they came and sat with me. Well we all got up and sang Spirit in the sky, the currant number 1. Later Matt suggested we go to his place in High Barnet, I didn't really know him but we talked. Yiggy played his game and Matt and me got to know each other.

In April i had a house party, which a few of my work mates turned up too, Matt came and brought his friends, i had brought lots of booze so he was happy. We had a laugh, Matt got to know my sister and i was happy but not so with his flirty body language. My friend Natalie S was trying to get us together, but we couldn't bring ourselfs to. He left, promising to call me, which he did.

I continued to see him in karaoke we talked alot still at Karaoke, but by the middle of May, when Yiggy came by himself. He said Matt had shacked up with his girlfriend and wasn't coming any more. I was disappointed. I rang him on my birthday to ask him if he was coming to karaoke, as it was on the same day (Sunday 1/6). But he said he didn't want to know anymore.

Yiggy continued to come to karaoke until July, but stopped because he felt lonely.
I continued going to karaoke, as i enjoyed singing, I didn't expect to see Matt ever again. So i forgot about him. In the mean while i still saw my soul mate Ryan. I had a fling with Phil from work and greek George and in May 2004, I kissed Jo (from work also) in the work pub. She later my life hell at work, so by the time August 2004 came, i was quite determined and excited about jetting to Ibiza 'cause i knew i would not be returning to work when i got back. Of course when i did come back (on a Sunday). It was karaoke, Neil the DJ marvelled my tan, but guess who had returned and with his girl friend .... ...Matt.

I didn't really mind i was a bit pissed off that he continued to come to karaoke and didn't say why he disappeared in the first place. When i started my new job in Mill Hill, I started to see Matt on the 251, as he worked Edgeware, like he told he did in 2003. He would only say hi and smile, but that would prove enough as i had a torrid time at Cafe 6, with co-workers demeaning me and the bloody six formers (except Camilla ).

It wasn't until christmas 2004, when Yiggy (who returned in August with his fiancee whom he met in July 2003), told me that Matt was single again and he fought we would make a nice couple.
That night Matt came over and we talked. Up and until March 2004, Matt didn't come to every single karaoke, and he changed his phone number so i couldn't ring him but i planned the unconvential approach and i was going to ask him out. A couple of sundays he had missed in March as his birthday is somewhere near the beginning, the 3rd i think. So the week leading up to March 20th 2005, i planned to 'ask him out' on that sunday karaoke session. But when i saw him in New Barnet on Saturday 19th, i asked him out then for that night. We went to a few pubs in New Barnet i wanted to go to islington, but he didn't. We were pretty drunk by the end of it, but happy as well. Matt took me to euromart in high barnet where i spent £15, not sure what on, which made me angry the next day, as i think he used me there.
Anyway back to the night, We went back to his place, he played Maroon 5's she will be loved, which ironically was the song i used to think about him too whilst working in Cafe 6, by now i had moved to the kitchens to work. We danced, hugged and eventually snogged and snogged on the bed. We were too drunk to do anything else, which was a shame, cause i wanted too. But not sex as i'm a good girl and waiting for marriage 'to do' it. After snogging and hugging on the bed, we fell asleep in each others arms. i woke around 6:30 and stupidly left the bottle of drink, thinking we would be getting it on again, some time soon. As i walked from High barnet to new Barnet, i was on top of the world and about to watch some grand prix racing as well.
That evening was karaoke and Matt failed to turn up, and he failed to turn up the next karaoke evening. He had given me his number and i rang him on it. He said he was busy and the next time in the week he said he didn't have the drink that i brought. I was fuming.
He wasn't interested in me anymore and he wasn't going to share my drink that i had brought.
Beginning of April 2005, Anyway I had my mind preoccupied with other things, my father was keen to evict me out of my room and the house where i spent my whole life there. As i was moving (to Finchley Central) i was determined to get my own back on Matt. Only thing is i didn't know how. As Matt had changed his number again. When he started going to karaoke again, Matt had brought along his latest squeeze. Of course i gave him evils for it, because what could i say? And if i did say it, i would have been too much of a coward anyway.

Anyway come May 2005, Matt made a big deal of saying of how he recently moved to New Barnet and i said oh i moved too, to Finchley Central. That was like the only time i spoke to him in the run up to Yiggy's wedding, which was on his bride's Anna's birthday June 5th, i was quite jovial about that as mine, was at the beginning of the month and Yiggy's is a week later than mine. I attended the wedding party in the late afternoon, Matt was the best man, being Yiggy's mate and all. I was not going to let my gruge with him get in the way. So i had a face mask, make up, the works and i wore my long black glittery dress, it was wow. Matt was keen to say hi, i held my composure, and said hi back. But i talked to their mate Steve as he was far nicer. The wedding was success. Anna had been to karaoke with Yiggy several times before and she was a lovely big woman.

By the end of June 2005, another karaoke had started up it was in Finchley Central with Jonathan the dishy DJ . At the beginning of July, Matt went to Crete. I didn't miss him as he wouldn't miss me. But when he came back, Neil pointed out he was red as rhubarb. From then my plan changed, in order to get at matt, i must be close to him, so i told he lost alot of weight, since the wedding when i had piled on the pounds. Jonathan , had moved his karaoke set to new barnet on a tuesday and Neil, i remember was put out as it was competition and even more so as Yiggy chose Jonathan and not Neil to be the wedding DJ.I went to Ibiza for more than 2 weeks in July/August, determined to get a better tan and meet more friends.

September 2005, Matt was keen to tell me he had moved to Finchley as well. Which made me think why? did he really like me and was all the other pushing me away things, a sign that he liked me but wanted to keep me at bay?

I saw Matt in Finchley twice and in karaoke until the end of Nov. I continued to go despite everyone deserting it because they were pulling the plug on it, in the first week of Jan. In early 2006, I often saw Matt in Dollis Road, my road, and he told me he had a new girlfriend named Judith, who was my ex-flatmate Joe's ex, Judith apparently, told Matt all the things she knew about me and how i had suffered depression before. I was happy for him as I was involved with Ali, although i wish i was with him as well, as Ali was keen to remind me we weren't serious, and i could see others.

Because there was no karaoke and Jonathan had gone else where as well, we didn't see each other until our karaoke pal John, had his birthday at the end of May, in the same pub Jonathan did his stint but another karaoke DJ now ran the show. Matt and me travelled back to Finchley together having missed the last 326 cause Matt didn't hurry up. We got 3 buses back and held hands. He showed me his room in Dollis Park, road next to mine. We talked until 2, then we had to go to bed as we had to go to work the next morning.

In July, Neil was keen to announce he had got the karaoke slot at pub which Jonathan had his stint at. The old crowd was back as was Yiggy who had moved away from Barnet, and Matt and me still had the chemistry between us, just that this time we didn't act on it or if we knew how to act on it. I'll probably get impatient again and ask him out. As Matt likes to play games!!!

I've been a fan of Jenson ever since he partnered my more favorite racer (RS) in 2000, at williams. The fact he is over 4 months older than me, made me have something in common with him. Then he left williams and joined benetton for 2 years, which became Renault in 2002. In 2003 he joined BAR for four years and this yeat they became Honda and the season as been fraught with realibity problems.

The Hungarian Grand Prix yesterday was unpredictable, thanks largely to the rain storm brewing over Budapest. Jenson had been relagated to 14 after an engine change, because his engine blew up on friday pre practice. Which saw Michael Schumacher overtake over those flags and get himself a 2 second penalty, Alonso was stuck with them because he picked up a penalty for road rage too.

Kimi Raikkonen was on pole, he led away well amidst all the other chaos. but a silly error with Luizzi saw Raikkonnen crash out. Alonso had made a very good start and got up near the front. but 19 laps from the end, and his rear suspension gave up.

From then on Jenson just needed to conserve his engine and car, and he was on his way to his first victory. Michael Schumacher made a late charge for the win but his car packed up with 3 laps to spare.

As the Daily mail Journo said what a silly time to have a weekend off, martin brundle? As we know the itv f1 team have been wanting a Button win for ages. and now it has happened. WELL DONE JENSON BUTTON!! IT HAS FINALLY HAPPENED!!

It was just after Christmas 1997, i was feeling pretty low as i was going through a depression because of a baby who suddenly died in August 1997, and the my fling with finn was practically over.
So when Richie came from Birmingham to live in London, so he could try and break the music industry, it was new to me. We were friends, although not tight friends, we saw each other when we could. Like we had jobs to go to and our own personal interests in the music industry.
We usually met in central London, chatted, hugged and kissed. He was a real inspiration to me, he liked aston villa, i liked Arsenal and Everton. So we always had one subject we never bored of. During the summer of 1998, i didn't see him as he had gone to the USA with some lads to release some promo material. He came back at the end of Sept.

Christmas time 1998, he met another singer who had made it into the music charts and he started seeing her. That meant we only met once a month to chat because he was shagging her. In the summer of 1999, he cut of his lovely brown locks, so it was spikey now, because she liked it that way and i guess, he would look good as her other half in the celebrity mags. By the end of August '99, he had made it into the music charts as well, so maybe the hairdo paid off.
During the last four months of 1999, he started getting closer to me again confiding his secrets in me and i did too, especcially my weird love for Malcolm. At Christmas, he told me he was going to propose to her (i was furious, but i guess it was something to get them into the mags). My reaction to my best friend getting engaged?
Kissing Malcolm, getting involved with Malcolm (not sexually) Urgghhh!!!

Anyway Richie continued to be loved up until May, when he got a virus and his fiancee dumped him, and well i was round there with the kleenexes to dry his tears, well thats because i wanted to do! we went to Corfu for a week in July with Spiros giving me lots of advice of Corfu. And in August Richie got to meet his idol, Brian May out of Queen, I took a photo and framed it for him. We continued being close friends and we wrote a lot more songs together and meeting in London.

But as the year drifted into 2001, we started to drift apart. One of the songs we wrote together entered the chart, in the summer of 2001. Then he announced he was going back to live in Birmingham, but promised me we would stay in touch because he still would come back to London for his music career. Plus he said i had Ryan now and i shouldn't get to lonely. Once a year i get the occasional e-mail from him, to which he always replies.

The last i heard was that he was getting married, so CONGRATULATIONS RICHIE!!
(Just a shame, it wasn't me)

It was summer 1996, i was 16 and going on my second christian camp to Mayfield. The last one i cried because i didn't want to leave so I was excited to go again. The first time i was introduced to Joe, i don't remember much, but over the course of the week i got to know him very well.
To be honest, i think he was up to up himself to notice me.

1999 was my last christian camp and Joe only turned up for 2 days even though he was told he could be a young leader. i was not interested in Joe and i told him that, besides i found Richie in the December before (and he was more there for me than Joe....)

Finn Peachey came into my life when we were retaking our GCSE english and doing a GCSE photography course together in September 1997. The moment i laid my eyes on him it was something special, i loved him the moment i saw him, although i wasn't in a good place at the time,

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I don't actually remember the first time i laid my eyes on Malcolm Tyler, it certainly wasn't like when i first met Ryan. You see i had just started a new job and i was trying hard to make a good impression. That was in October 1999, by November 1999 i was totally smitten by him and try to make him me. He went away for a week then as it was his birthday. December 1999 came and so did the christmas party and i wanted to tell him i liked him. But he ignored me and i hooked up with someone else. I felt guilty but glad for it. i actually thought for a while he liked me bac. January 2000 came and Malcolm said he had to leave Enfield to go bac to Hertford. i tried to make him stay but he said he wanted to go back and he did. On Valentines day i said him a massive A1 card but he ripped it up and burnt it. My heart was broken. Everyone knew and humilated me further for it. All i did was show my feelings and i was left depressed until May for it. After not seeing him for a while i went to Hertford with my head held high and told him what i thought of him, that was my first part of my revenge and a summer pary i found some 'do not use' tape and stuck it on his back. How funny was that especcially as he had got a new girlfriend by then. By the way Malcolm is not that handsome anyone, lets say he is more ugly than cute!!!!

I was in love big time, i didn't even bat a eyelid for other guys 'cause i knew he fulfilled my soul and heart. He was the one i wanted to grow old with, so proposing marriage was on mind but i just didn't know when. Ryan introduced me to a karaoke night, you see i love singing and to this day i still go. I told him i loved him and he said its 'a bit heavy for us yet, yvonne'. We spent alot more time together in the weeks leading up to christmas 2002. That's when we shared our first kiss. Ryan and me weren't much into kissing just for each other. We shared another one on his 28th birthday in Jan 2003. Later that month he got involved with Kate and a week later i got involved with Areshi, neither of which would work out. But changed us forever. I continued to see him as a friend up until October 2003. When he disappeared from my life again. i wasn't so bothered this time because i believed he would come back to me again. from day 2 day i miss his prescence in my life, and i don't know if i could marry someone else when my heart belongs to him. vonnie

When i first Ryan, i didn't immediately fall in love with him, i knew he was something special back in April 2000, when i worked with him in his branch of Mcdonalds in Southgate.
Anyhow i didn't see much of him for the rest of that year.

When 2001 came, Ryan had left that branch and came to work in my branch in Enfield town. So i saw him on a daily basis and the more i got to know him the more i liked and the more i fell in love. We started to hang out together from june onwards (of that year), and a few times we had hour long chats, which made me realise i've found my soulmate. He had a girlfriend at the time but they would spilt up in October, the same time he left Mcdonalds and joined the link. I didn't see him for another 6 months. This evitabley would prove a difficult time for me. It didn't help that i had to work in Hertford's Mcdonalds alongside another former boyfriend (who is going to get his own segment soon).

In April 2002, when my mother died, Ryan came back. This time i saw him regularly in the pub, (once/twice a week) still as a friend although some might say we were going out.
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