myguys

I don't actually remember the first time i laid my eyes on Malcolm Tyler, it certainly wasn't like when i first met Ryan. You see i had just started a new job and i was trying hard to make a good impression. That was in October 1999, by November 1999 i was totally smitten by him and try to make him me. He went away for a week then as it was his birthday. December 1999 came and so did the christmas party and i wanted to tell him i liked him. But he ignored me and i hooked up with someone else. I felt guilty but glad for it. i actually thought for a while he liked me bac. January 2000 came and Malcolm said he had to leave Enfield to go bac to Hertford. i tried to make him stay but he said he wanted to go back and he did. On Valentines day i said him a massive A1 card but he ripped it up and burnt it. My heart was broken. Everyone knew and humilated me further for it. All i did was show my feelings and i was left depressed until May for it. After not seeing him for a while i went to Hertford with my head held high and told him what i thought of him, that was my first part of my revenge and a summer pary i found some 'do not use' tape and stuck it on his back. How funny was that especcially as he had got a new girlfriend by then. By the way Malcolm is not that handsome anyone, lets say he is more ugly than cute!!!!

I was in love big time, i didn't even bat a eyelid for other guys 'cause i knew he fulfilled my soul and heart. He was the one i wanted to grow old with, so proposing marriage was on mind but i just didn't know when. Ryan introduced me to a karaoke night, you see i love singing and to this day i still go. I told him i loved him and he said its 'a bit heavy for us yet, yvonne'. We spent alot more time together in the weeks leading up to christmas 2002. That's when we shared our first kiss. Ryan and me weren't much into kissing just for each other. We shared another one on his 28th birthday in Jan 2003. Later that month he got involved with Kate and a week later i got involved with Areshi, neither of which would work out. But changed us forever. I continued to see him as a friend up until October 2003. When he disappeared from my life again. i wasn't so bothered this time because i believed he would come back to me again. from day 2 day i miss his prescence in my life, and i don't know if i could marry someone else when my heart belongs to him. vonnie

When i first Ryan, i didn't immediately fall in love with him, i knew he was something special back in April 2000, when i worked with him in his branch of Mcdonalds in Southgate.
Anyhow i didn't see much of him for the rest of that year.

When 2001 came, Ryan had left that branch and came to work in my branch in Enfield town. So i saw him on a daily basis and the more i got to know him the more i liked and the more i fell in love. We started to hang out together from june onwards (of that year), and a few times we had hour long chats, which made me realise i've found my soulmate. He had a girlfriend at the time but they would spilt up in October, the same time he left Mcdonalds and joined the link. I didn't see him for another 6 months. This evitabley would prove a difficult time for me. It didn't help that i had to work in Hertford's Mcdonalds alongside another former boyfriend (who is going to get his own segment soon).

In April 2002, when my mother died, Ryan came back. This time i saw him regularly in the pub, (once/twice a week) still as a friend although some might say we were going out.
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This is one of the reasons why i have started up a blog and this recent relationship is something i can't tell anyone else about. yet, like friends, family or work collegues.

It started in May as a bit of flirting, we've been seening each other since, c.beginning of November. We were both friends first, there is a general trust between us. which helps. Although i will admit i do care about him and want him, just don't love him.

Yeah there is a big age gap of more than 5 years. its still early days and its nice to be involved with someone, especcially if you've been on your own for a while.

vonnie

P.S. In response to the nice comment, when i said more than 5 years, it was more like a bit more over 12 years, which again makes me worried about how people i know, will accept us.

I split with him end of february, we're still good friends, but neither of us was ready for commitment.

P.P.S Things have settled down and we decided being friends was better, i know him more as one and yes he's name's Ali, as you can tell by the picture.