I was in love big time, i didn't even bat a eyelid for other guys 'cause i knew he fulfilled my soul and heart. He was the one i wanted to grow old with, so proposing marriage was on mind but i just didn't know when. Ryan introduced me to a karaoke night, you see i love singing and to this day i still go. I told him i loved him and he said its 'a bit heavy for us yet, yvonne'. We spent alot more time together in the weeks leading up to christmas 2002. That's when we shared our first kiss. Ryan and me weren't much into kissing just for each other. We shared another one on his 28th birthday in Jan 2003. Later that month he got involved with Kate and a week later i got involved with Areshi, neither of which would work out. But changed us forever. I continued to see him as a friend up until October 2003. When he disappeared from my life again. i wasn't so bothered this time because i believed he would come back to me again. from day 2 day i miss his prescence in my life, and i don't know if i could marry someone else when my heart belongs to him. vonnie